I write so rarely, but needed to decompress and use this to journal mostly for myself. I wrote my second to last blog post about my sadness of not being able to attend CUE 2020. I am one who reflects back often but usually I do this with the photos and videos I take. But writing can let me look back at how I was feeling. So, that is the purpose really for this post. (Oh, this best to read while listening to Bruce Springsteen - Thunder Road (Springsteen on Broadway - Official Audio) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ySC5NpxAp3U Like virtually every other teacher out there day, I feel like I am at the tail end of a storm. I can sense it may be over soon But also, I know that the landscape and myself will not look the same. I write this on March 13th 2022, two years to the day that all that we knew would change. For me, that Friday I was pulled into an emergency all day meeting at the district office where myself as a former TOSA and other TOSAs, admins and others planned what we could do if our district had to pause live instruction. Little did we know that this was the beginning of a storm that will irrevocably change everything. You’ve all lived with what came next. Looking back at it now, it all seems such a blur. You may have a similar story to mine… I had to switch to… A Non-punitive grading system A Virtual classroom A Distance learning environment A Hybrid schedule A 4X4 schedule An A/B schedule and so on I’ve had to… * Make screencast videos that only 5% of my students would even watch. * Struggle with my own apathy and depression; wondering when this all would end * Not lose my mind and have get togethers with my fellow teachers in our school parking lot. * Rush my room to be ready as we were one of the first schools to open due to a reckless school board * Take apart my classroom to fit students 6 feet apart * Spray and wipe down my room with an ever changing concoction of cleaning supplies * Try and stay connected with my PLN by “meeting” (translate to getting drunk) with online Zooms And I consider myself one of the more flexible and techie teachers. I feel for all those others who hit their breaking points earlier. All our stories are different, yet still the same. The pandemic numbers would go up and down. Life would feel like it was edging back to normal then back to shitty once again. For me, the impact was always secondary though… By that, I mean that all the issues and changes to my life were done in reaction to the pandemic. But all that changed with the start of 2022. Although it looked like we were on the tail end of this, it was then that it became personal. By personal, I mean that in January two of my friends and fellow teachers at my school became seriously ill from COVID. Which is just so hard since all that we heard about the Omnicron variant was that it was more transmissible but less severe. Both of these men have taught at Rocklin High for well over 20 years and like so many others in the profession, those who we work with are more than just colleagues… they are our friends. We eat our lunches together We plan, scheme and try to solve the world’s problems We share our dreams and our hopes And we have our kids grow up together At first it was my friend Dale who became ill. Dale is a social studies teacher with whom I spent 13 years also in social studies. We always said we put the SOCIAL in Social Studies! His passion for teaching and all things sports is a huge part of who he is. He coaches both the girls and boys Tennis teams at our school. He was such a willing participant in everything we did at our school. From coaching to reffing, to acting and dancing in our Follies performances, to managing websites and reporting sports scores, to barbequing for his students, to organizing fantasy sports leagues, Dale has been a workhorse for Rocklin. He simply loved what he did. I mentioned his passions, but it is his love for his wife and two children that defines who he is. And Dale has spent over 50 days in the ICU Dale has been fighting all this time and it is his last few days which have really prompted me to write and reflect. That is because Dale has made some incredible progress. Intubation, sedation, infections, etc have wreaked havoc on him but yesterday, Dale was moved out of the ICU. His struggles have been at the front of all our thoughts here at the school and in his circle of friends and family. His wife Ashly has been just an unbelievable pillar of strength for him and the rest of us. Her daily communications and updates have helped us keep connected. I mentioned I taught social studies for years. Then I transitioned to a TOSA for 3 years and now I have been in CTE as a video production teacher and co-department chair for 5 years. It is this department, my classes and my school where I have put all my efforts and energy since the pandemic. I tried for a while to “stay connected” via Twitter, my Check This Out podcast with my dear friend Brian Briggs, but it is all just too much. Oh and I can't forget the toxic dialogue against teachers both at the national level as well as in my own town. When did we become the enemies? Listening to our recent board meetings and seeing the venom on local social media has been some of the most saddening parts of my professional life. The vile and hatred by zealots and extremists led me to actually speak out at a board meeting in defense of teachers for the first team in 20 years at Rocklin (below is the link. I speak at about 1 hour 40 minutes and much of what is before and after is what I talked about regarding the toxic talk) https://youtu.be/uAjDxglTo4g?t=6042 Back to my current position, the department I am in; CTE. We have gone through so much since the pandemic in terms of our teachers. We have had: 1 teacher retire as he had planned in 2020 1 teacher quit unexpectedly 1 teacher retire early unexpectedly 1 teacher pass away unexpectedly weeks before the start of 2021 1 teacher come out of retirement to fill that gap. And his name was Casey Nichols Casey taught at RHS since 1994 being a national leader in journalism and publications. He was so much to our school both the students and the staff. Casey became seriously ill with COVD days after Dale. Both of these men had underlying conditions. But Casey had been out of teaching for two years and was incredibly protective of his health. He was an advocate for all of us doing our part. He believed in rights but also that we have responsibilities to each other.. He came back to our school after our photography passed away and we could not find someone to hire. Casey came to help. Casey passed away on February 2nd His impact can not be understated. The fact that the scholarship created in his name has reached $33,000 speaks volumes on the both type of person he was and the impact he had on countless people. To learn about Casey and his impact the Sacramento Bee did a piece on him you can read here Casey was just an incredible person. He taught for 36 years He was the 2004 National Yearbook Advisor of the Year. He loved Bruce, he loved to read, he loved golf, and he loved having everyone tell their story He was a coach and an inspiration He was a husband, a father, a brother, a son, and a grandfather And for me, he was a mentor, an inspiration, a teacher…. but most importantly… he was my friend. I’ll miss you Casey here is a video of when he first retired and his goodbye to our staff. Give it a watch, particularly his quote from around the 12:00 minute mark "#I'm an imperfect man on an imperfect journey, doing the best I can" So, now on looking on to March 14th tomorrow and wondering what the next chapter looks like, I just don’t know.
I know I’ll go to school tomorrow. I know I’ll try to reconnect at CUE later this week but I also know I am different as well. I don’t know what I’ll do in terms of getting back to working with teachers with professional development And I don’t know how different I will be as a teacher
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Sharon Taylor
3/15/2022 02:50:59 pm
I value your honestly and feel for you. I have enjoy listening to Check This Out for a number of years and have leanrt so much, but also appreciated both you a Brian sharing your lives and connecting around the globe.
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8/11/2023 12:39:31 am
I really enjoyed this post. You describe this topic very well. I really enjoy reading your blog and I will definitely bookmark it! Keep up the interesting posts!
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